Intoxicated by My Illness, and Other Writings on Life and Death

The link is a review by J. Russell Teagarden of a book by Anatole Broyard, who died of prostate cancer but used his illness as a way to reflect on literature and illness (and literature and medicine). Teagarden explains that the book is “a collection of writings concerning illness and death, mostly his, and in particular, the metastatic prostate cancer that took [Broyard’s] life at age seventy.” The book is not a chronology of Broyard’s illness but, instead, a collection of his New York Times articles, his notes and early drafts of writings, and a talk he gave at the University of Chicago medical school.

Two subjects in particular might be used in a class. One is an approach to thinking about terminal illness. As Teagarden explains, “The book begins with the first of many counterintuitive notions Broyard offers when he refers to being intoxicated by his illness. With the diagnosis, he ‘is filled with desire—to live, to write, to do everything. Desire itself is a kind of immortality.’ (p. 4) Broyard is not just intoxicated by his illness; ‘I’m infatuated with my cancer.’ He is not doomed as much as he is freed; ‘I can afford now, I said to myself, to draw conclusions.’ (pp. 6-7). Likewise, the idea of meeting death with style is a theme across the book.

The book also addresses the relationship between literature and illness; as Teagarden states, “he considers the literature of illness, the literature for illness, and the literature of death.” The book includes passages in which Broyard tells the story of his illness, and the story of his father’s illness (both died of prostate cancer).

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